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At one point, in 1974, I had a really bad report card and a teacher I liked yelled at me and I just remember crying. "There was another girl who was at school with me who was being abused in the network but unfortunately I never found a teacher I could speak to about it. It was quite shameful but I didn't want to know.

She told MailOnline: "When I returned home for the school week, my parents acted like nothing had happened, so I took their denial and kept telling myself I was normal. This was the only positive in my life, and I clung to it as my only raft to keep from drowning in a sea of shame and self-loathing." It felt good to be viewed as the most perfectly beautiful, sensual object by powerful men with high standards in taste.

"I received more attention in the network. She said: "I was a shy girl, with few friends at school, and at home no one cared for me. I wanted to be invisible, but it was very difficult."ĭuring the week, she went to school where she described herself as being a "nonentity". "I really didn't want to be made a 'favourite' of one of the network because I knew what happened to girls who got singled out.it created a lot of problems. There were friendships but I tried to keep things as simple as possible to survive. She added: "The children were set against each other. "The killings were not always private and I remember I once saw a body."

"I was graphically was not something that was talked about. Boys were more often tortured but girls were killed. She told MailOnline: ''I had to do it because there was always the threat of being killed. "No child deserves what I went through, or what millions of children go through."Ĭhildren were scared into silence and members of the network killed those who threatened to go to the police. The children were a commodity, the highest and more valued commodity, and used for sex. "There was a lot of alcohol and a lot of drugs. "Afterwards, left lying there like a broken object, I felt so humiliated", she said.īravely speaking out about her horrifying ordeal on the Global Citizen, she said: "The adult men that were part of the network were there for various reasons. She was used for an S&M show, chained up with an iron dog collar and made to eat human faeces.